tears

It's been some time since I last cried over a movie.

It's not even a movie with romance or anything,but it's a movie about life.

I was watching this new Malaysian drama "A time to embrace"

This movie is about a story of a gang of friends which goes through life during the old times.

At first the 2main actor couldn't really get along because 1 of them was from a rich family,and the other was not.The conflict got bigger where somehow the not so rich guy fell for a close friend who lives in the same town with him.The rich dude got really close to the girl which somehow made the close guy friend of the girl jealous.

Todays episode the part which made me cry was when the girl(jin jiao) was crying because she got cheated by a movie director to film something like a pornographic movie which herself doesn't know about.She was too innocent to believe the director due to her big dreams of becoming an actress.The part when she was all down and sad,the 2 sisters were there to comfort her.The elder sister was those ego type of girl but she just couldn't scold her sister,not at that point where she was so heartbroken and sad for being cheated and nearly got raped.The 3 sisters hugged each other and started crying together because they could feel the hurt jin jiao was feeling.The other 2 guys,which jin jiao are closed to,felt sorry and bad for her to for not being there when she was depressed over this issue.

At that moment i started to think,"what if that was me?".Though I do not have sisters like she did but I know I do have friends who would be there to comfort me at the lowest point of my life.

It made me wonder what if i never met my group of friends,what would I do?I know what I would do

THOSE STUPID STUFF I USED TO DO

And trust me,stupid stuff as in REAL STUPID STUFF

For the past few days i was actually feeling very....

you know

but really thanks to my friends who were always there for me.

I really don't know what would I do without them.With the existence of them,I managed be strong and stay strong.Eventhough it's tough for me to clear up my mind from some stuff,but somehow I know I can do it.It's just the matter of time.

I really felt touch by the moment and thinking back what my group of friends did just to make me smile again.

And yea,I'm so gonna move on with my life and be a new person all over again.

Because I know that,no matter how much pain I'm going through or how much pain I will go through in the future,there's always someone for me.

It's God,my family, and also of course MY BABES.

My jackass-es =)

You guys mean alot to me.

I love ya'll

<3

So for now,a brand new me is in process.And they are part of the ingredient in making the new me=)