I don't wanna get hurt but I want to grow up...

I'm feeling the hurt again...why must I be like that?why can't I just stop feeling the hurt?I WANT TO STOP IT NOW!!!!!!!!!
I want to grow stronger and more mature and not letting myself being crushed by guys...I know it will take time,no matter how long it takes,how much pain I must go through...I don't want to disappoint my friends...especially those friends who cares about me...I wanna show them that 1 day I can grow strong and tough...and mature enough to settle things happening around me no matter small problem or big problem...
So what being hurt?so what if nobody wants me?
SO WHAT??!!I am a rock star,I got my rock moves...I don't need You tonight...!!!
was writing this blog while listening to Pink's So what...haha...it really changes your mood whenever you're listening to songs...
no matter what's happening around the world,how chaotic it is,I just know I'll always have my friends with me...
I love you guys...
thanks for being there when I need you...but there are thing only me can settle it...I know there are many friends who are worried and caring towards me,but there are somethings that I won't learn if i didn't have hit myself on the head...there are things as friend told me that we have to have alot of experience then that will make us grow...
to all my friends...
Don't have to worry about me...I just know
there sure gonna be 1day I'm gonna learn
my lesson and change my self into a better person...
guys...
Just wait for me...give me some time and I'll show you guys how much I have changed...
just wait for me...
=]

February 2ND 2010:
I'm gonna be brave and go through everything as tough as I can,to prove myself that I can make a change in myself...

to Him:
thanks for being part of my life
I'm going to be a perfect person...
soon...in time to come...
<3